Its JUST an outfit.

A thought was just waving in my mind from two days so thought to share it here. Again, an experience or a way of seeing things? Lets go!

Its the story of 2012, I was a sixth grade student then. My cousin's wedding was fixed that year in February.

"Wedding!!! What I am gonna wear that night!?!" I was just excited more about the dress which I was gonna wear that night than the wedding itself. Haha. 

"I will buy you a new one today." Listening to this heavenly statement made by mummi, I had begun flying in thoughts about all kinda dresses which were used to be in fashion at that time. What dress is mummi going to buy yaar sis, I am so excited for today!!! Yayyy!!! Hurrahh!!! Like every other kid, I too was so mad for the dress.

"Only I and your papa is going to market today. We all can't get in one bike now as all three of you have grown up." said mummi.

"Umm.. ok.. but.. ok leave.. but buy good dress haan.. do you know what you have to buy?.. I have to wear that in wedding.. it should be kinda wedding dress.. umm.. ok.. I trust you mummi.. more than that I trust your choice.." I was murmuring this all to mummi so that while buying any dress, she can at first recall whatever I have said to her. 

"All done sis, I have told mummi what kinda dress I want!!! And I know, she will buy the one of my choice. My god! I m so excited." I was saying this all to sister, in a way, was just showing my excitement in words to her.

At evening, mummi went to market and had come up with the set of dresses for us.

"Take, this one is yours." said mummi.

I very hastily took off the cover and very enthusiastically took out the dress from the pack. 

"What is this!?! What you have done mummi!! What you have brought!!!" This was the line of a girl with a broken heart. A dress which she hadn't even thought in her dreams that her mummi will buy that kinda dress for her.

"What do you mean by what is this girl? This is a dress and that's it.. moreover, its in fashion these days." said mummi in such a satisfying tone that it was seeming like she is gonna wear that dress, not me.

"Huh! Whatever! I am not gonna wear this at any cost.. moreover, you people and specially papa has prohibited me from wearing such kinda dresses.. you ruined my dreams mummi.. what I had thought and what you had come up with.. I am not gonna wear this.. no way.. what hell!" I was now feeling like crying. I am not made for dresses. I am not made for anything. God, where am I! Atleast you help me. This was all my immediate thoughts about that fitting jeans. That dress was actually very popular that time. I remember, the lower of the dress was upto my knees and the waist and bust were good fitted at the top.

"Ok, you don't wear then.. atleast have a try and see how you look in this!" Though I was nagging like a child for buying the new one, but I couldn't say no to mummi from trying that dress as she was so hopeful about that dress.

"I am trying.. nothing more I can do but about this dress than just trying it." was the tone of the desperate cum silly girl. 

"My goodness! You look gorgeous in this!!!" exclaimed mummi.

"Huh! I am unwearing this now, enough with this dress which is gonna be a topic of mock for the elders of our family!" said I angrily.

"Oh god! This girl! So you are afraid of your elders.. haha.. arey girl, time is changing now.. these things should not matter at present.. just chill my baby and wear this like you wear your other dresses." Till now, mummi had begun her preaching about all kinda fashionism, modernism, society and me. =_=

"Ok I will wear this in wedding." I said in a mild tone.

"That's my girl na." mummi was now happy. And I, don't ask. I was just thinking about what elders of my family i.e. grandpa, grandma will say.. do I really look good in that outfit? But I haven't weared such kinda dresses before! I knew, papa didn't say much about that dress coz he don't prefer going back to the shop and returning things, he hates doing so.. godd.. ok.. it was looking good but I wasn't that comfortable in that as I normally am in my other dresses.. gosh! Why these outfits aren't just outfits my god! Why so much thinking about a mere dress! Seems like, this isn't a dress only, but my future depends on it.. huh.. Thinking this all, I fall asleep that day.

Next day, my grandpa came. He just came to meet us. Mummi told me to wear that dress and show to him as well. I wore and he just said girls aren't allowed to wear such kinda dress in our family. Moreover, this dress doesn't suit you. =_=

Then he just told me to come with him to market right then and he will show us how to buy decent dresses. 

We went. Come up with a nice set of frock suit(a sort of salwar suit). I wore the dress in the wedding as well. Mummi was little upset as her preferred dress was returned and so do I for her. But I, at that time was more glad with my that pretty dress than being sad for mummi.

Days passed.

Now at present, I just don't stick with any kinda dresses. Whatever kinda dress mummi brings for me, I wear that without being hesitant. Seems like, I now have grown up into not that conservative one like the elder ones of my family. Haha. Thanks to mummi for inbuilting such good thinkings in me. And thanks to my studies as well. 

"You know, a new tenant has come few days back. She is a nice pretty girl with a good attitude. A working girl she is. And my gorgeous, she is beautiful like none other! And when she walks, it seems like a heroine(actress) is passing by. And the dresses she wear, are just as faishonable as the dresses of Alia Bhatt. She wear jeans, pajamas, and all such kinda professional dresses." remarked my grandpa while sipping tea day before yesterday!!!

"Whatever so, you my dear one, look good in normal dresses(traditional dresses according to him)only being the eldest grandchild of our family." is the statement of my same grandpa everytime he sees me. =_=

Is he being hypocrite? Why outfits aren't just outfits? Outfits seem more like one's religion to me with a strong belief attached to it than just being outfits.

Thanks a lot for reading. And a very Happy New Year 2021. :)